:) My life September

Wendsday Sept 16th
heyy people! im in class right now i finished what iw as supposed to be doing so now im just sitting here talking to you. so yah actruelly its lunch time i g2g bye :) heyy yahh its me haha, okay so this is all that happend today :). k so like andrew asked me out today in person :) lol i said yes because i cant let go of someone i did so much with. okay yah nothing really important happend. me and asain tacooo aka nico are like best friends now i love that kid. haha :) kaila and lauren mite have swine flu.  kk well thats all grg bye bye :)

Thursday Sept  17
heyy! im in tech again okay so ummm the bus was late this morning how gay is that! i know gay rite! yahh so we got to school i was in science it was super boreing. yahh....i saw andrew and haha hes so funny :) Asian Tacoo is in nebraska :(. lev is his normal self, brett is idk.. haha. yah lunch is next. im gona oatmeal alot of orange juice because evryone is getting swine flu. o yah and i left my gatorade at ambers ugh that makes me so angry!

Friday Sept 18
Yah so this morning was a slow morning andrew almost missed the bud but he got on :). Gosh the he/she wasnt smokeing at the bus stop today tank god. yah so we got to school super duper boring dayy... at lunch me and andrewww are like way closer :), o and brittneyy brought chinese food and we all had like fricking chinese it was awsome! I got like 3 orange juices cause im not gona pay 1.25 for a fricking orange juice thats like not even a foot tall. Yah me and andrew have gotten closer :). o and today i found out that the dean said that ounce they find out who sent the pic of bailey and austin around the school then that person is gona be in like so much trouble, and i was like WOW its just a f**king picture why do they have to get all craziiie about it! Yah then it was time to go home and like amber was like nagging me. All i said to her was "do u still like nico?" and she was like "yahh ive told you liek a million times and your FLIRTING with him!" like with an attitude. o and I WAS NOT FLIRTING ALL I SAID TO NICO WAS HI HE WANTED A HUG I GAVE A LIL HUG THEN WE SAID BYE. ummm does that sound like flirting NO! k so then andrew had to go see the teacher and it took forever i waited for him, and i was danceing in the hall way yahh, we almost missed the bus because of his gayy ass teacher, the doors on the buss's were closeing yah so, we got on thankfully and he put his arms around me :) it always makes me happy when he does that. then we get there and we give our hugz and kisses :) <3 ^3^. So im walking home i see bosco our old cat, and i pet him and cuddle with him and take pix of him cause i havent seen him in forever and hes still the same old cat, but just a wild one now. i dont think he has a home i think ppl just feed him like alot of ppl. cause he got fater lol. yahh btu hes so cute. so then i got home i eat and yahh. i was super tired and i went to sleep at the 12:30 thats really earlie for a weekend. yah and that was my day :) bye bye :) ill tell yall wat happends on SATURDAY!! :)

Saturday Sept 19
Today was a stay at home and clean day. i cleaned all day and played with my makeup. i didnt go outside really at all today. but i really wish andrew could just call me for no reason one day and just tell me how much he loves me...but he doesnt. but i still like him no matter what. yah so today was super boring. Nothing really spectacular happend. O but i Doenloaded lots o music so....that was fun :) yah so right now im just sitting here listening to music. the song im listening to is City at war- cobra starship  yah its a great song :) like techno slash like rock :) its great. yah and im stying up really suber duper late so yahh :) i dont think im gona do anything tommro..... who knows but i probly wont. well i will talk tommro. im gona go update myspace and facebook and everything else.


Sunday Sept 20Todayy in the morning i was so soar because of last night. yah so we SOOOOOOOO and liek it was so much fun and like we were with josie and hes like a brother to me now i just met him yesterday! hes awsome!yah but i still went to like fricken SL we went to walmart and sams club and um STARBUCKS << YUMM! yah so then we went home i got ready and then i went to SL again and saw the Love Happends movie with lexi. It was really fun! then i came home i had to like clean and crap yah and then yah now im here. O WAIT I FORGOT TO SAY THAT AT SL I MET KAILAS BOYFRIEND CHRIS AND WOOOOHHHHWIIIIE HES HOTTT! HE IS JUST RITE FOR HER AND HE IS SO POLITE! HOW CUTE IS THAT! shes so lucky to have a good boyfriend like that im jealous. me and andreww arent like lovey lovey yet.... :( yah so nothing like romantic i havent hung out with andrew at all, but i wish he would call me...just to like say hi or something but he must be really busy, o well :'(. yah well im sleepy and school is tommro :) tty tommro.


Monday Sept 21
hi, okay so today was a very weird depressing day. k so i came to school and it was freezing! i got on the bus it was still freezing. so yah and it was the usal, ya so i was chipper and stuff and like i got to my first class we took map tests for some reason i felt lonely it was because i dont really have fre=iends in that class and travis and izaiah werent there and i wanted brett. but he was ignoring me :(. So i went on with the day, it was extended core that was fun i was partners with kylie :) like always. but then it was lunch k so i didnt eat much cause i felt weird and i wasnt hungry (i think i was stressed but i need to eat not eating is bad for me). So then andrew wanted to go outside and i was like "but its cold" and he was like "get soemeone to cuddle with meeeee." in this weird high pitched voice he always does so then i was like "OKAY!" i was excited. but when we got out there it was blistering cold. So andrew held me for a while but i felt weird. like i didnt feel right with him. everyone was being so funny. then he tells amber something really bad and me (at least this is what i herd i wasnt there at the time) and amber started to cry. i didnt mean to ignore her but i accidently did. so she was a lil mad at me. Then i cried because she was mad at me and i was so stressed about my social life...nd school. so i egt into my class i was about to cry so i went to teh bathroom and balled. Then after class i went downstairs to go see ppl. Andrew saw me first thing asked if i was okay i said yah...but i wasnt. im never okay. so then it was my last class, and we read in that class, i was super stressed about that! like idk i was freakign out for no reason, i was burning up and sweating so i ask to go the bathroom i was red. i dont know what came over me, but i know i was like nervous tahts why i was sweating. so i clean up go backk to class read. then as soon as the bell rings i run downstairs and look for andrew hes already there. i hug him and he says do we really have to wait for amber and i said yah. but then i just said lets go cause i was burning up again, i was sweating and needed to get out into the cold again. so we do we  get on the bus. the bus is almost to our stop when he askes me "i dont get why i ahve to apologize to amber it was an accident" i said "because it would make me happy and it will clear everything up and it will all be back to normal" he just said nothing really. so the bus finally gets there. you dont know how badly i wanted to just run away and never come back. so we kiss and i was like bye and he didnt even say bye back. so then my dad is like right there in his car he picks me up from the bus stop. i get home and like i wanted to cry so bad! so i talked to kaila bout my day haha that was funny and like we were danceing crazy and laughing and stuff and now im here gona do my homework. well that was the longest day i have had this whole year. yahh well ttut.

Tuesday Sept 22wow todayy was craziii! so first i get to the bus stop and today was the day i break up with andrew and i will tell u why i did but just wait. So we get there he comes i start freaking out...so amber does it for me...i c him tearing up but hes not like cryinh like balling i just see his eyes water, and when i saw that i started to cry also :'{. and the i get really sad and i say to myself "wat have i done!" so now im like super sad and i cant believe he almost cried i didnt think he would do that! i feel so bad. but i did it for a reason. The reason i did this was because i am fed up with all this drama i am sick of it i just want to live life...dateing is a drug and i want to quit for a while thats basically what im trying to say. Like for now...i just dont want a boyfriend. i dont wan a boyfriend because realationships make me stress and get nervous and then i screw up all the time and someone ends up getting hurt in the process, i dont like getting my heart broken and i kno no one else does. Now i am not be self centered about this i did this for other good reasons to. by breaking up with andrew this will benefit otheers because ppl tell me that andrew is an ass hole when he is arond me and i partly believe them, so by doing this he wont be an ass hole maybe...? though i did thik of him in the process to. i just want to be friends with him...but he hasnt answered that yet, but ill give him time because it mite take a while for him to answer anyways... And if u think i did this cause im a bitch sure what ever thing that but i did this because it was all for the better. it was better for me and him and others. and plus why would he want to be with a short ugly girl anyways. there are  any others out there but why did he choose me? i want t kno lol but yah. i fell really really bad that i may have hurt him emotionaly but andrew i did it for the better and friendships are lost after a realation ship. Andrew u and me used to really good friends and like now we are like not even close to being friends anymore, im just confused i have been super stressed lately, but i just need a break from dateing a lil bit. Im not gona date....but that doesnt meen im gona stop flirting, haha here i come flirting NON STOP! so kiss my ass haters because i will flirt with ur boyfriend if u piss me off hahahaha. k so tehres the break up story. Dont ask me anymore cause now u know. k well back to my school day so then i got to school we did map testing i got a 213 in case u are wondering on the SCIENCE part. yah and then it was extended core i pigged out on food :). then it was  tech key and im really good at that class i love making websites it is like a hobby! o yah go see my website! >>> MY WEBSITE CLICKY HERE! k so then it was lunch. and i t was kinda awkwark cause andrew sat with us and he ws like looking at me but i pretended to ignore it. but me and amber inside joke > RICE VA hahahahahaha.k so we all went outside and it was so funny haha Zach G is so hilarious haha. he makes my day :) <<NO ME AND ZACH G ARE NOT DATEIN IT MITE LOOK LIKE IT BUT WE ARE NOT>>> yah and it was just like loads fun. So then it was drama but travis wasnt there AGAIN so yah shes making us do the play tommro but IM NOT GONA BE HERE TOMMRO HAHAHAHAHHAHAAA SCREW U F-ING PLAY FRICKING SHAKESPEIR! hahaha tyler and christan are gona have to do it together! o__o hhahahaha yah then it was math omg this girl that sits nexto to me omg i think shes menatl i just wasnt to slap her she is so annoying!yah then it was S.S and i hate my teacher she is makign me be partners with these gay fags and ugh! i hate partners im INDEPENDENT! yah and then it was um L.A and me and lexi have the greatest idea for when we have to call our parents we are awsome like that! yaha and then i had to get on the bus and yah i sat with lexi and we talked our usalla talk and it took me forever to get home cause i was walking slow. and yah now i am here and i still have to do a bitch load of hw so yahh. bye bye talk to yall tommro. P.S im only gona be here for the begging of the day tommro at school. i have to leave to get like shots and crap and wont be back the whole day so i will see u all again on thursday :) bye

Wendsday Sept 22
Today um andrew wanted me to talk to him at the bus stop so yah i did. it was nothing really. so then we get to school and science was really fun we got to burn stuff it was awsome! like really awsome! yahh and now i am typwing to you from my extended core class. yupp thats what im doing right now and its boreing cause we  finished all of our work really really fast. yah so the next class is gona be tech web but i have to leave that class easrlie cause ima get myflue shots and then im gona sty ome because i dont want to go back to school. so yah. o but i just found out that ANDREW TOLD PPL THAT HE BROKE UP WITH  ME AND I CRIED! thats so not fricking true that is the total opposite!!!!!!! that is exactly the opposite of ehat happend. i only cried because amber said he was tearing uo and i felt bad...idk this  is just so weird! this is making me mad. i hate dateing! DO U SEE WHAT DATEING DOES TO ME IT MAKES ME PARANOID! lolol yahh ima go see paige soon i cant wait because she hasnt been here for ever and i really want t see her! well ima write back later ans tell u more after i leave school and everything.kay well i love you all thankies for liatening to part of my day bye! :) okay so i got home we ahd chick fa le hahaahahahaha yah and i was on myspace and facebook for a while and then had to go get the flu shots. yupp I GOT THE ELMO STICKER! yah k then we got home i i didnt do anything except watch tv and go on computer because taht is basically my life at home....yah. o and that i had a bitch load of hw and i didnt even get it, so i was like ugh! yah. taht was today


Thursday Sept 24OMG TODAY WAS TEH GAYEST DAY FRICKIEN EVER! okay so here i go, andrew called me and we harly talked so then hes like i have to go talk to me at the bus stop, so morning comes i get to he bus stop hes already tehre so i walk up to him and i say "hi" hes like"huh" and i was liek so u wanted to talk? and he was liek "um sure" so then i was like so wats wrong "he said nothging" and i was like so pissed off so i wlked away and he went to go talkt o his gay 8th grade friend. k so we are on the bus and  HE PULLS OUT FLIPPING SMARTIES AND FAKES SMOKING AND I AM SO PISSED TAHT HE IS TRYING TO INFLUENCE DRUGS! i hate that he does that so much. So i was like stop tahts for gay fags. and he was like "no its not the real thing its okay" and then iw as like no its not fuking okay! what the flipping crap and stuff and he was like "chill" and i was like NO u are  INFLUENCING DRUGS AND THATS SO NOT KOLL AND I KNO U ARE PROBLY GONA DO IT IN HIGHSCHOOL BUT INFLUENCING IT NOW IS JJUST STUPID AND IDEIOTIC! yah he didnt say anythign and just went on doing it. k, so we get off i am gissiping about things and stuff with lexi, k so we get to our classes, and thatw as gay i ahte my partners but kat is cool but mercedies is just fricking weird and u cant even understand her. i wanted to be travis's partner but it seems he only wants izaiah and bri so im like okay wat ever makes him happy. k so then i it was extended core and i hate alot of food because i was so stressed. k so then it was tech and i always have some sort of fun in that class some how. k then i t was luch, so i get an orange juice for me and zach g, then i go and sit with my group.  SO GATCHETS IS AT OURTABLE NO ONE WANTED HIM THERE EXCEPT FOR ANDREW! THEY STARTED THIS GAME CALLED "BLOODY NUCKLES" AND ITS WHEN SOME ONE PUTS THERE NUCKLES ON A TABLE AMND ANOTHER STRONG PERSON DARTS A QUARTER OR OTHER META EMO OBJECT AND YAH AT THERE NUCKLES IT RIPPS OFF THE SKIN AND MAKES IT BLEED. SO I CRY AND TELL THE PPL THAT WERE DOING IT, [MOST OF AL MY FRIENDS] THAT THEY SHOULD 'GET ALFE AND STOP BEING FRICKING EMO FAGS BECAUSE THEY ARE GAY AND THAT IS FOR GAY EMO FAGS THAT DONT HAVE A LIFE AND LIKE TO BLEED TO DEATH YAH LETS JUST ALL HAVE A MURDER FRICKING SCENE RIGHT HERE AND HURT EACH OTHER] YAH SO THEN I STORMED OUT MAD AT WENT SATR ON A WALL AND CRIED MY HEART OUT BECAUSE THOSE ARE MY FRIENDS AND THEY ARE ALREADY DOING BAD THING TO THEMSELVES.yah o and guess what! PAIGE AND AMBER DID IT! WHICH MADE IT 10 TIMES AS WORSE BECAUSE AMBER AND PAIGE ARE DRUG FREE AND THEY ARE DOING THAT LIKE ABER I CANT BELIEVE SHEWOULD DO THAT IT JUST TORE MY HEART UP INSIDE THAT THEY WOULD DO THAT. yah so now everyone hates me they say that i cant handke anything im a winp many ppl called me a bitch so now...i guess im on my own my whole group isnt the same anymore we used to be tight till hte end i dont even know whats gona happen on monday. [we dont have school tommro] well yah and then i was depressed and sad the rest of the day OMG O YAHA ND TRAVIS WAS DOING IT WHICK MADE ME CRY EBCAUS EI LOVE HIM AND I CANT BELIEVE TRAVIS WE WOULD BE SO STUPID AS TO DO THAT. THIS IS CRAZIEE I HATE MY FRIENDS AND THAT THEY ARE DOING THIS.  i wish everything would just be normal like it always was our group being happy all the time.  I BLAM MICHEAL GATCHETS FOR ALL OF THIS HES THE ONE WHO BRANG THE QUESTER OVER O AND TITO! BUT I BLAME ANDREW FOR THE GAY SMARTIES CRAP HES SUCH AN IMATURE LITTLE DOUSH!

Friday, sept 25k so today was actruely fun! i slept over at paige's house last night with amber. lexi was suposed to come but then her mom didnt let her, so we watched tv hing out talked and that stuff, put on amkeup. then we watched the grudge and that was really scary!!!! yah and then i kinda fell asleep when we were watching buffy haha. yah and then my phone woke us up at 9am and we took showers and ate and stuff. then we met this gay fag kid and then this gay fat fag kid and he smoked and then when he smoked in front of me i left. so then they wouldnt leave is and iw anted to leave so bad but paige ugh, wanted to stay and i was like omg i hate them, so yah i officially hate them, yah so then niko came, yah it was kinda stupid, so then he invited his friend and his friend is hot but all they cared about was paige no one else but paige and i was like....wow worse then kaila. and i jsut got a lil bummed out, but yahh. so then we went around the hood and then saw alisha so me and paige ran from them haha that was fuun. yah so then we went down to skyvista that was so gay like iwanted to frickin die. like theyw ere all over paoge so i called zach so that he could give me attention because i know he would because me and him are like best friends so then he didnt come until right befor paige wanted to leave and i was like omg that was a bunch of BS. so i said bye to zach but i fricking hate zachs friend hes like what grade are u in, and he was liek u look like a 4th grader and i was like yahh  thanks for helping me when im already stressed deoressed and fuking already know i look like a fuking gay little kis and that im an ugly whore. ugh! they piss me off!yah and then we left went to paiges house shes like crieing because of kell i try to comfort her but i really dont know what to do because i havent been in that situation befor. yah so then we eat turkey dogs and we are lke layiong on the couch. my drowzyness makes me googley so me amber and paige laugh the whole time. so then we go upstairs hang and take pix. then kaila comes and haha we still take pix and then lexi comes and like we had a blast when she came. we played this fun game with a starburst wraper and we danced and then i had to go home. yahs o then, im home and kailas there we watch this weird show. then i watch george lopez cause im bor then i go downstairs and now im here so tahts my day, i am still depressed bout the whole thursday thingy but i ahve just kinda said to myslef like i guess they can do what ever they want because i know taht im never gona do it, but like if they want to screw up tehre lives then screw up but im above the influence and i will never smoke, sniff or do any of that. im above.
Saturday Sept 26
haha i slept over at paiges house um yesterday and i was there until 7pm today. yah we hung with Niko and his pricking hawt friend! yah it was kinda fun until we got to skyvista because paige wasnt paying any attention to me and amber and then zach came and i was happy but then paige wanted toleave! >.< ugh! so i said bye, so we got to her house hung out and then um this gurl kaila came over not my sis but this other girl. and shes really kool. :) yah so then lexi came and we played the funnest game ever u would have to take a starburst wrapper and make oragomi haha but we kissed the oraagomi and threw them :) it was fun then i had to go. i got home and me and kaila watched dolll house yah i love that show. then we got bord i was on farmtowna and then i went to sleep yah ttrhats what happend :)

Sunday  Sept 27
k so today was a boreing day i really didnt do anything, all i did  was stay on my computerand socialize with my friends. i didnt go anywhere i stayed home. But me and kaila hung out like all night and we had alot of fun. though some scareyness but the rest was hilarious! it was fun :)

Monday sept 28

Tuesday Sept 29

Wendsday Sept 30
today has been awkward....likw i get on the bus this kid is like being all likeeird and stuff...yah and like talking about like baseballl so i try to make it funny. yah and then me and amber were like laughing and like lexi got mad i think....so i tried to make her happy..., (not perverted) yah and then i get like fricking gay ass school and like science i hae the gayest group ugh! i hate it, ui have no friends in science.... :'( yah so i have to have mental partners. yahh....k so then it was EXCORE fricking gay.....yah....and then ummm tech and that was really fun cause i actruelly kjnow how to do stuff and i don t feel stupid...yah k then it  was lunch and i had to go to class and do work and i guess it was good i got it doinw so now i dont have to go in anymore....yah. k then its drama and right nowfro some reaspon i always feel depressed in this class like i cant think....and its really hard to do this crap cause i dont know how to act i hate drama i didnt even pick this gay class i hate skyvista so mcuh they are a bunch of dumb ass's i want to kill them all ! yah the pprincib....something is gay....god i ahtye him to and i realy hate ms wil...something yah, so tahts it. this is my life on the computer 24/7 nothing to do my life sucks.im a screw up yah well wat ever.